Yesterday, the person who’s moving into our building on the ground floor, was cutting the branches of a tree. The tree that has been there for several years and has provided us it’s shade, it’s fruit and it’s positive companionship. He had already cut another tree few days ago, not from the root, but by the branches. People were furious and spoke up against it but behind his back.
I felt so much anger that I kept looking out the window, to see if he’s cutting the whole tree. By that time, it was just the branches. JUST THE BRANCHES. How would you feel if I cut your arm or leg or just one ear? That’s how the tree must have been feeling.
I started crying. I don’t know how I felt it, but I just wanted to hug that tree and ease it’s pain and I prayed to god and said I was sorry that us humans have once again, (Inspite of all the punishments) have disappointed mother nature.
Suddenly, I thought that he is cutting the whole tree out, with the root. So I asked, if they’re. They said NO, they’re only cutting the branches. But I still wasn’t sure. So I kept standing there by the window, and at one point, I was going to go downstairs and stop them once and for all. There was almost a repetition of the ‘Chipko Movement’. I was ready and I was crying. But then, they stopped. The tree was still standing, with less branches. But it was there.
I was sad because I knew that THIS MAN is going to teach his kids the same things. That we can destroy nature for our needs and in the age of planting more trees, they’ll be cutting more! It all made me realise that what I’ve witnessed today and inside my heart is a feeling I have never had before.
I cried for a tree today.
Yet, we need to keep going, right?
As humans we’ve been taught to be faithful and keep moving ahead, no matter what. I agree. Inspite of the fact that the world is facing it’s worst of this century, we must keep moving forward.
I felt guilty for feeling great. I used to see myself as a selfish human, who doesn’t care about the world. The truth is, I don’t anymore. I care, I don’t feel guilty of being happy. This feeling of ‘content’ and ‘self-belonging’ has been missing in my life.
I have never felt that I could love myself and my life this way, as the hardships we go through let us forget that we deserve to be happy. We feel we’re going to be hurt all our lives. But what we need is to embrace that feeling of negativity, ACCEPT what is going on and then, we let it go, once and for all.
So, I accepted that the tree is okay now and I won’t let that man cut anymore. I don’t know about anyone else, but during this whole pandemic, I sure did come closer to Mother Nature & I’ll keep moving with Mother Nature by my side.
Thanks for reading Namaste.